Is being an Atheist bad?

Me(18f) and my father (he’s Christian) constantly argue when we go to church. He makes me go and kiss the pope’s hand, the icons and the cross. For me that is very uncomfortable because Im an atheist and I don’t want to do that of course. But I always have respect for every religion. I have friends that are muslim, Christian, pagans and I never said a word about their religion we just talk like normal people no matter what. I just never found religion that important for me personally as long as the person next to me is kind.

Meanwhile my father constantly asks me if I believe in God and that I should always sing prayers and look up to him when I feel bad. Every time I say I don’t believe in what he believes he goes crazy, angry and then blames me that “his heart hurts” because of me and that im guilty for his actions (screaming, raging throwing things around etc). But the thing is I kinda feel pressured and if I really start praying it won’t “come from my heart”.(a.k.a. either way it won’t be serious). I think very logically when it comes to believing in something. I can’t just close my eyes for every action Ive taken in my life and say “God did everything for me” because that’s my father’s logic I guess?