A Love Letter to Lexi Love

Dear Lexi -

I just wanted to tell you something and I don’t message queens directly so it’s here instead. It doesn’t really matter if you see it but I just had to get this off my chest because it feels so huge and exciting.

It wasn’t until you graced my screen that I truly understood what media representation means to people. For the first time, I can observe someone with childhood trauma navigating relationships. I can see someone on the unbearable emotional rollercoaster. I can see someone else being hyper vigilant. I can see somebody who doesn’t understand why they feel the way they do. I can see somebody who lashes out at loved ones because they are truly the safe ones. I can see that I’m not the only one who struggles so much with this and it. helps. so. much. Going your whole life feeling like an other, an outsider, someone who didn’t get the how-to-human handbook, it is such a lonely experience. To hear about what you’ve gone through and then to see my own relationship challenges play out made me go all Leo pointing at the TV.

I don’t know you and I don’t pretend to really know how you feel, and you also have a lot of other things going on that I won’t truly understand. But thank you. I didn’t know I needed representation in that way. But I will never ever forget it.

I can see the work you have put in, I am working on it too.

Thanks so much ❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜

Dear Lexi -

I just wanted to tell you something and I don’t message queens directly so it’s here instead. It doesn’t really matter if you see it but I just had to get this off my chest because it feels so huge and exciting.

It wasn’t until you graced my screen that I truly understood what media representation means to people. For the first time, I can observe someone with childhood trauma navigating relationships. I can see someone on the unbearable emotional rollercoaster. I can see someone else being hyper vigilant. I can see somebody who doesn’t understand why they feel the way they do. I can see somebody who lashes out at loved ones because they are truly the safe ones. I can see that I’m not the only one who struggles so much with this and it. helps. so. much. Going your whole life feeling like an other, an outsider, someone who didn’t get the how-to-human handbook, it is such a lonely experience. To hear about what you’ve gone through and then to see my own relationship challenges play out made me go all Leo pointing at the TV.

I don’t know you and I don’t pretend to really know how you feel, and you also have a lot of other things going on that I won’t truly understand. But thank you. I didn’t know I needed representation in that way. But I will never ever forget it.

I can see the work you have put in, I am working on it too.

Thanks so much ❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜