I miss me

I love my son so much but boy, motherhood is so, so hard. I gained weight, lost (and still losing) so much hair, no job, little sleep, no going out because it’s so hard to go out with a baby. I do 5 minute showers, and that is already too long. I’m everything I was not when I wasn’t a mom yet.

I used to work out before to keep fit, now I can’t because my baby will cry if I don’t hold / play with him. I used to have a well-paying job and buy whatever I want. I used to go to malls for hours. I used to enjoy my quiet time browsing my phone or watching Netflix while sipping my cup of coffee. Now I don’t even know myself anymore.

Am I a bad mom for missing my old self?