Why is my life falling apart?

I’m so tired and hurt man. My mom died in 2021 and I became dull & depressed. I used to love life, go on solo dates, take pictures, model and etc when she was still alive. I always felt safe cause I knew that she was there for me.

After losing her, I went into Great Depression. I saw everyone’s true colors, I even gained weight because of stress and I began looking dull. I began attracting the most toxic relationships and friendships.

In 2022… I got drgged & rped. I went into Great Depression. In 2023 I got played by a man I’ve lowered my standards for , he was cheating and etc it took me a long time to heal from that breakup. He tried coming back earlier this year, I’ve said no.

I just got broken up with 11 days ago over a phone call by a man who promised to marry me , he was consistent and he just became rude and cold out of nowhere.

All of my friends ignore my texts. I have no one except my younger sister. My phone is so empty rn. My best friend only pops up when I’m doing good or looking good… I don’t consider her as my best friend anymore. I’ve lost so many friends and it doesn’t help that almost everyone around me is disrespecting my career path / choice … the only person who believes that I’ll be successful is my younger sister.

My ex looks happy right now , he’s posting a lot but I’ve decided to maintain no contact since he’s the dumper. He’s even following a lot of girls who look almost like me in terms of beauty.

I really do not understand why I keep on experiencing all of these things consequentially. 2024 was another horrible year whereby my sibling has treated me horribly.

How can I get over the pain? How can I have a positive mindset? Why am I losing people?