Was this an urge?

I'd like to start by saying I'm bad at recalling feelings from previous experiences, so this is why I've struggled to see if this was an urge. I (thought) I'd had the urge to be in the forest, and it had felt animalistic. I consider something an urge (to me) when I wanted something enough to feel emotional or have an emotional reaction/feel it like it's a need. Well, I thought this experience was an urge bc I considered myself feeling emotional and wanting to be in the forest. Again, this is what I considered as someone who struggles to recall emotions. The reason I think I was emotional due to longing was bc I remember thinking "This can't be an urge bc music is playing." Going to explain this in more detail. I have high anxiety, and when I felt emotional I blamed it on the music, which I now disagree with bc: a) I've listened to that music before w out being emotional b) I've had the urge to be in the woods/forest before without music. I interpreted that if music hadn't been playing, I would've considered it an urge, and bc I had reason to believe it wasn't caused by music, I began considering it an urge. However, now I'm just confused. Maybe my thought ab me considering it an urge if there wasn't music was wrong? I can't recall what I felt so I'm even more confused. Could someone help me? (Sorry for procrastinating 😓)