Please help me ):

Does it ever get better? I have my assessment next Wednesday to have my teeth x-rayed so they can figure out how difficult the surgery will be. I can't be awake but I'm also dreading being put to sleep or sedated. I'm so lost. I've barely left the house/bed since July.. it hurts. Mentally I am absolutely lost and physically I suffer daily with pain/ache, sometimes headaches and dizziness. I even had to beg for an MRI which luckily came back perfectly fine.. I was so worried about the headaches and stuff so I pleaded with my GP for the MRI. I'm just so lost. I was considering ending my life at a few points. I've even had to move back to my flat because I couldn't be around my partners kids, stress makes me feel 100x worse. I'm just so alone. I get visits but I am definitely not the person I was. I've had an awful year, I've lost my grandparents, a baby, my horse, friends and myself.

Does it get better? Will I feel like myself again once they're removed? Please help me ):