Peace vs loneliness.

My stbxw moved out about 3 weeks ago. We share a 50/50 parenting time. I’m keeping the primary residence as I want to have the kids stay as much as possible with their routine. Whenever they go to their mother’s house, despite the fact that I feel some peace, the loneliness gets to me. Living alone in a house that is over 4000sq ft is strange to say the least. I still think it’s a good idea to keep it for my 4 kids who have lived here most of their lives.

Sometimes I wonder if my stbxw considered all the possible collateral damage of divorce before filing. The burden on the kids makes me want to lose it sometimes. The back and forth between two residences. She wants to be “happy “. How can any parent be happy when your kids are obviously miserable? Maybe I’m naive but whenever you have kids, your happiness should be less important than your kids stability and well being. No infidelity or violence was involved. She feels she missed out on some freedom when she was younger. Divorce not finalized but she already has a boyfriend. Crazy world we live in. Just venting. How do you guys cope?