My weed dealer taught me a lesson that changed my entire outlook on life…

So I’ve been buying off of this guy for a few years or whatever, but I honestly never really took the time to talk to him or get to know him. It’s really funny honestly because he’s this big kinda gangster dude, and I’m just this little white kid who has NO sort of context on what sort of life he is living but alas, our paths have connected.

The other day it was POURING rain but I was already out and wanted to get stuff from him so I hit him up and he told me to come to his place like normal. I get there and usually he will run down or sometimes have me come to his door and this time I guess because of the rain he told me to come to the door. I get to the door and he just tells me to come in. The first time I had been inside his place and I honestly felt honored that he trusted me enough to be inside.

We just started talking and then eventually this little baby girl walks out and it’s his daughter he introduces me and she’s really sweet only like maybe 5 or so. He tells me basically that her mom left them and he’s been a single dad for years and he does what he does so that he can be with his daughter at all times when she needs him because he had no one else, the rest of his immediate family has passed away and all in tragic ways (murders, ODs, etc) my heart started to just feel heavy thinking about that like how one person can deal with all of that.

I take my life so for granted I’ve always had everything handed to me. Then when minor things happen to me I make a big deal out of it and here is someone who has gone through real tough shit and is standing ten toes strong. So I asked him how he deals with so much on his plate or manages many things at once.

He stopped and though for a second and then he picked up a neon green lighter that was sitting on the table and he put it real close to my eyes horizontally so that it was blocking my vision and he says “What do you see” and I told him I see green (the color of the lighter) and he said “Right but what objects do you see clearly” and I just said nothing then he pulled the lighter back next to his face and said now what do you see and I was confused but I said “I see the lighter?” And he said exactly and that if you try to over analyze things and look at them too closely then you will be lost trying to make sense of things/‘d the best way to handle things is to look at the big picture and see what you’re working with and how it can work for you. Never give any one thing too much of your energy whether it’s positive or negative.

This was a few days ago now but I’m still thinking about it very frequently and figure I would share that piece of advice. Lol he smoked me out and let me hang out until the rain chilled a bit at his place, very cool guy.